Well, obviously as a nursing student, I do have to go to the hospital for clinical. I am definitely always nervous when I go to the hospital. It's sufficiently - because I did clinical in the ER, and you never really know the condition that those patients are coming into the hospital with. And so really you just have to be cautious.
It's always a thought in the back of my mind, like, you know, I really hope I don't get COVID. You know, this is my career choice though. And so in the end it's helping me to prepare for when I graduate. But as I said, it's always a scary thought. You know, am I going to go home one day and have these symptoms? Or, you know, am I going to live to fight the good fight another day? Right?
I think of it as it's just part of the job now. You know, I personally, I don't see COVID going away for quite some time, so it's kind of the new normal now. And so with that being said, it requires a lot of people, especially those going into the medical field to really take some time to think about, is this something that I want to do? Because I will be risking my life every day that I decide to go to work, you know, do I want to really do that?
Well my mother, she was a physician's assistant for quite some time when I was a child. And so that was my first introduction into the medical field. You know, I would go to work with her and I was able to just observe what she did on a daily basis, her interaction with patients. And that prompted me to want to become a nurse. It will be coming true. I will be graduating December 2021. I am very excited, very nervous, and just a whole lot of emotions.
So more than likely I will be required to take one if I'm being honest. But, um, this thought has been weighing on me a lot. Recently, a lot of African-American people are choosing to not want to take the vaccine. And I think that it is very important that although you are afraid, which is a normal feeling, that African-American people really do get out and take their vaccine and participate in clinical trials. Because, you know, if you don't, the medical community won't have any information on how you as an African-American would respond.
And a lot of African-Americans have other comorbidities or are more prone to, you know, just having high blood pressure, you know, diabetes. And it's important to know like, well, if you get this vaccine, how will it affect you? And in order to get that information, you have to participate.
And a lot of people, you know, being that I go to Tuskegee, they refer back to the Tuskegee Syphilis Experiment. Definitely our orientation class, our freshman year, we had to, we, I think we actually read a book about it. So we have to get that knowledge. You know, everybody that goes to Tuskegee knows about it. We have a whole museum dedicated to it, so you'll get that knowledge one way or the other.
Essentially black men, they had syphilis, I want to say in the 1930s, and the US public service during that time, they denied them, the vaccine for it which was penicillin. And so they use that as an opportunity to study African-American men and a lot of people became very distrustful of medicine based on our occurrences like that. And so people do use that as the reason which is valid, so not participate in clinical trials. But as I said, really, you have two options. It's either you do it. You find out how it affects you for the betterment of the community or you don't. And then more African-American people continue to die.
Actually some of my elder family in Mississippi, they, a few of them have actually passed away from COVID, which is, you know, unfortunate. And it was before the vaccine came out and, you know, the elderly are already susceptible to having a whole slew of other issues. And it's just like with COVID it just adds another layer to everything. Yes. I mean, it was really, it's really sad. You know, while they are elderly, they were like 65. So, you know, in our mind you think they have so many years left and for their times would be cut short. It's really unfortunate, but it's an eye opener for, you know, other people, you know, you have to be careful when you are going out.
You know, people being skeptical of the vaccine, — it's valid, why you would be skeptical. However, we have to get the information. I mean, we have to get the information in some way, some how, and again, the only way to do that is for us to take the vaccine. And so I personally would encourage people to take it. I would encourage you to take it even with all of your fears. I encourage you to take it. Because you know, you would hate to be in a situation where you are now COVID positive. And it's like, well, Man maybe had I taken that vaccine, would it be a possibility that I could be negative? That I wouldn't even have to worry about contracting COVID or, you know, if I did get it, my symptoms wouldn't be as severe? I wouldn't be on a ventilator fighting for my life, you know?
I miss the most, really just freedom. You know, just having that freedom to just be able to go out and, you know, go to the grocery store, you know, go to the movies. You know, hang out with all of my friends without having to worry about like, you know, are you sick? Are you sneezing? Are you coughing? Because you know, nowadays, if anybody coughs it’ss like, does she have COVID? You know, do I have COVID? It's just this fear. And I hope that we can all just get back to a time where not be fearless, but let's, you know — it's reduced. You don't have to worry so much about getting sick and and again, death.
I am really thinking about that heavily right now. I really do want to be a travel nurse. And so that we may not traveling all over the world. That is what I am leaning towards right now. Yes I want to be able to, you know, see the world. I have not been to very many states, so that is obviously a part of the attraction of travel nursing. But also I just want to see different, you know, diseases and all that stuff in different parts of the world. I know if I sound gross to somebody else, but you know, that is something that I want to see. I want to experience that, you know, how different hospitals might handle different things, different crises and all of that.
But right after graduation, I would obviously I'm coming back home because I need to study for that NCLEX. And so I need some stability, which is what home provides. Especially in a time like this.