I'm located in SF San Francisco Bay area. I'm 16 and I'm a high school student at SOTA. My Oh Whoa moment was I remember on the school speakers, they announced that we're going on a three week leave from COVID and we can't come to school and we need to get our stuff out of the lockers and we need to go home. It was like, get out of there because we need to go. And I remember I called my mom and I was like, mom, I'm scared as like, they're talking over the speakers and people are panicking and they're like, but in a good way, they're happy. They're happy that we get to go. And I just remember looking around like, am I the only one that's scared?
Like, because this is such a crazy moment. And so. I just remember on the bus home, like people were really excited to have these three weeks off, no school, we just get to hang out and chill and I was panicking. I just feel like I'm on an overthinker already. And so it's like knowing that we're going through this horrible time right now in our country, I just was very like panicked. My head is racing a million times a minute. I'm like, no, I'm going to get COVID. My friends are going to get COVID and my friends are like, or not specifically, my friends but the people around me are just like, no, we get a break from school. We get a break from work. We get to hang out on the house and do nothing. Like we need that. We've been wanting that. And I'm more like what's going happen next? What's going to happen after the three weeks? And that's kind of where I was at.
So I will say the rest of that school year was really difficult for me getting used to things. And then we started up again this fall and I will say my motivation for school was little to none. It's been really, really hard for me to get used to this new life. I'm so used to doing a hundred things in one day, like going to work, going to school, you know, talking to so many people, being in touch with so many people. And now all of that has been limited. And so now I've been kind of stuck in like depression, ruts, where I feel like I don't want to leave my bed. I don't want to get up to go do school. I don't want to do anything because every day feels the same every day is it's just doing the repetitiveness of COVID life.
I'm usually by myself actually with my two cats. And so I kind of have room to do whatever I really want, which is really nice. And I'm very fortunate to have that because I know a lot of people don't. So a lot of that just looks like going on my phone for like three hours at a time and like watching TV. And if I do have the time to practice, like I do end up doing that catch up on homework, facetime friends to check in, write a song, maybe. So it's just a bunch of like random stuff that I can do. Sometimes I paint. That's just something I picked up too is just painting. Cause I get bored. So it's stuff like that.
So my thoughts on the vaccine are pretty limited only because I don't know as much, so I don't want to speak on things that I'd have no idea about. But what I will say in my opinion is that if it's helping people that need to be helped, like, like critical nurses, people that are in the hospital everyday, helping COVID patients and people with COVID, if it helps, then it helps.
But I feel like until there's a, for sure, like we are ready to go, vaccine is working for people who don't even have COVID people who do have COVID then I'm more than happy to take that vaccine. Until I get that certification, we are ready to do that, then I feel like I'll continue to stay in the house. I'll wear my mask. If I do end up leaving the house and keep myself social distance.
The return of, of normal, well, life is honestly a blur to me. I just feel like, I know for a fact though, is like, things will not be the same. I feel like people are still gonna wear masks even no COVID is gone like streaming and zoom. Yeah. Stuff. I feel like that's still going to be a thing because now it's just going to be like, instead of avoiding COVID it's like, now we're so used to this life of staying home. It's like, why do we want to leave now? I mean, for the people that have been missing it, I don't doubt that they're going to go out and party once COVID is over. But I feel like for the people that are like introverts and people who do not like to be in crowds in public, why do I need to go hang out when I can be on my phone and feel like I'm hanging out with somebody online?
And so I feel like it's going to be a lot of just a divide of like, I'm either going to go out, or I'm going to stay home. And so that's kind of how I see it. I mean, BLM movement is the perfect example. We - That was a movement before we even had COVID and I feel like it wasn't recognized as much as it was during COVID because now people are home. They're able to just look at their phone and not worry about work and all those things. And so it's like, that is a perfect example of how things have already changed. People have recognized other people. And so I think moving forward, there will be changes. For so long, it's been so easy to turn a blind eye and not acknowledge that these people are suffering and that it's not just you who lives in this world. And so it's like, I feel like COVID has given everybody the time to really recognize that I feel like a lot of people have grown through this quarantine.
Some of the things I miss before pre-COVID is just, you know, connecting with people face to face, working at sunset. You know, I used to mix people's music. I used to create music with people and now I get sent beats and people are like, Oh, write something, hop on the beat or whatever. I make a song. And it's like, I used to sit in a room with you. We used to connect and make real authentic art. And that's something I will always miss is just connecting with people face to face real life.
I don't know. It's like different than just zoom.